WTH ?!

Are you kidding me 10 days , what should i do so that i will not be bored till death since he will busy again and again and again .

Hear me

As i know , is nobody fault why i become like this and become like that .

Today i become not in the mood because just now exam paper was damn tough and confuse some more . That's why , but someone misunderstanding . I also feel that you are feeling down or blue . I will give you time and space to calm down your feeling and mind . I understand what you feeling . You already be the good and the best for me . Once again is not your fault .

What i'm feeling right now is sad , unhappy , lonely , alone , empty and most of all i cry a lot this day . Finally , i get flu and fever . But i won't eat medicine to get better because day after day sure will be better , i hope so . People say if we cry will make us feel better but i didn't feel better at all . When i needed someone , there's no someone to comfort me and no need to talk about when i need someone the most because the result also the same . I can't sleep at all because my mind keep thinking non stop . I stay awake until in the morning because my sickness strike again and i feel like i'm dying and gasping for air . Poor me . I can't smile or laugh like i always do , i hate what i'm feeling right now but sadly i don't where should i start to change the emo feeling . I'm not good enough in finding friend . I don't know what to do to change all of that . I didn't eat well or drink well . It seem like i'm torture myself , i'm stupid . No need to find me because i'm a trouble and mood spoiler and i also know that no one will find me .I already accept all kind of condition around me and try to get use to it . I'm totally hopeless and friend-less . All i know to do is lock myself in my room . No need to worry about me .

Mood : sad :(

I just realize that my total post is three hundred .

UNIQUE 

Borenely

Borenely is combination of two word that is bored and lonely which create by me .

This lately i feel bored and lonely but don't know why . Stupid me , this lately got few problem which kinda annoying but i just ignore , they try to piss me off but they didn't make it , then make their-self piss off . Pity for you guys . You guys just like a moron , like a moron . Haha !

Back to me again . I will get my freedom after i finish my last paper on 20 December . Now i left 2 more subject that is geographic and basic economics . I'm not yet study for those subject because now i kinda hard to absorb . And my mum keep nagging about my pimples on my forehead , yes i know mum , i didn't get enough sleep , i will sleep earlier after i finish my biggie exam . Not to worry dearest mummy .

You know what , i'm so bored until don't know what to write in baby bloggie . Now i started my doing Love Drugs which i will give to adelson as gift .

Sponge , sponge , sponge .

Silly Me

Baby bloggie , let me describe at here what i feel .

Sigh* I feel strange with myself , i feel like i'm easily piss off , moody . What happening to me ? What should i do to overcome this attitude . When he tell joke , yes i'm know he joking but i direct become quiet . Sure i'm a mood spoiler to him and i'm really sorry because i didn't mean to make him feel what i feel . Son, i'm sorry about this evening call , i didn't mean to be moody , is just so suddenly become like that . The truth is something is bothering in my mind , but i can't figure out what bothering me . But not you the one bothering me . Well , got few person kidda annoy me but i just ignore . Nothing to worry about that , amanda .

Note for You part 4

Adelson ,

I'm sorry because yesterday didn't left note for you in baby bloggie . I didn't get the chance to online because all worker busy in the office that's why i can't online . But you already know about it since last night i called you . Last night call was adorable as we sing like we always do , oh how i miss you sing for me and sing together . Thanks for my new nickname that you set for me ' yai yai ' . I'm still thinking for you new nickname , but still can't get it . Son , i know you kidding about last night but i don't might posting note for you , i really love to post note to you . I love you , smartie-pants . MWAH !

Soul

See the boy in above picture ?

He's my heart and soul . The one and only i love in my entire life and world . I just found the right one to share my life with , share my joy with . He's the boy i comfortable to be with , fun to be with . Both of us just like to laugh without any reason . We share lot of time together , most of the time full of our laughter , all the time is full with our voice everywhere and anytime . We just hard to keep quiet , we just got something to talk about , laugh about . I just like that very much , i want to keep it like that forever . Can or not my dear ? I'm really feel lucky for knowing him . I never felt this happier , after meeting him my life just full with joy . I'm just lovin' him so much . Do you want to know the truth ? The truth is , i miss you and i love you all the time , every second , every minute , every hour and every day . Everything that i want and need , i already have it all . Just left a happy family of my own that is with you and twins . I will wait for you no matter what happen , i will keep on waiting . Don't forget that i'm waiting for you . Even you like to make my ear hot hot hot but i will calm myself down , i won't let it affect me . I know that you also joking . It's being in love with you , make me happy all the time even my mood is emo i still happy inside . I didn't pretend to be happy , smile and laugh . When i smile , happy , laugh is truly from my heart . I never pretend at all , all the time i be true to myself . I promise won't let you down . I promise won't leave you . I know we still young and too early to say this but i sure that you're the one right for me . You just like part of me , i want you to be mine . I'm only being selfish to make you mine and for sure i'm yours for eternity . I will never forget every single moment we had together . I will appreciate you . For me , your happiness is more important than anything else . I will make you happy all the time . I would like to have a simple hang out with you but meaningful . Whisper 'i love you' toward you ear which you like to do to me when we meet . Touch your puppy eyes and you touch my sepet eyes . I just miss all that moment we had . I miss when i sing to you in the car and in phone and in webbie . I know you also miss it . Just admit it . I promise i won't change . I promise i will be just the way i am , and you also just be the way you are . End of story , i love you with all my heart , MWAH ❤

Photo of Tonight

Note for You part 3

Baby Adel .

Sorry about last night when we on the phone , i didn't mean to be moody but when i laugh or smile is really from my heart not pretend . When people moody sure can cheer up right . Finally you already know my truly attitude , why i like this why i like that , when ask me to change or you say to me that i can change is easy to say or ask but hard for me to do so . I know that kind of attitude make myself look not really friendly but mine friendly is different from others . Maybe my attitude will change but don't know when , is just matter of time or perhaps won't change at all . Now i'm listening to that song again , the song you play last night . Really this song make 'gggrrrrrr' you know what i mean . LOL xD I promise i won't easily be moody . Deal ? You know , i miss you so much so badly ! By the way , i loving you the way you are , MWAH !

Note for You part 2

Son son (:

Cece post note for you again as i promise to do so . Well , about last night call is memorable , our main topic is re-flash back our memories from the beginning we knew each other , is kinda funny when we talk about it because lot of funny question and action . We were like LOL or LMAO ! Last night was extraordinary , i sleep happily even i didn't bring along the handkerchief of yours . Glad can calling with you last night , if not i have no idea how to sleep happily . As for today , good luck in your exam paper , i know you can do the best as you already struggle much more till didn't get enough sleep and got more eyebags . But you still cute for me as you know . Haha xD . Sure you fly fly up away when i said like that or perhaps speechless . Just wait for the note part 3 . I love you , MWAH ! One more thing , don't be yai yai (:

When  i can have cat or kitten again ? I'm so loving cat person

Wow oh Wow . This nail colour is so awesome or what ?! Is neo light ! Want much .

Awww . Isn't this sweet much ?

Hoodies , i want it so much . Only got one in my closet . Need More !

When will be open at here ?

Relief

Glad that everything is fine between lazy cat and lazy puppy . Happy now (:

Uh - Oh

I'm not really in a goody goody good condition right now . Sickness of mine strike back to me , gastric some more what else will come to my body . What more pain i will feel in my body ? Is there anymore ? I'm tired hold on with all my sickness , i'm exhausted when the pain will be gone . But nevermind , i already get used to it , i can hold on and fight on . I say i'm fine but actually not how silly am i . I'm always hungry indeed my stomach is elastic . Now fever , very cold right now . Getting warm but still cold till my bone . I'm not well at all . But my smile cover it up . Next , i haven't plan yet what to do after my biggie exam , family planing going to kota kinabalu but not conform yet . I will get my license test , Hang out with lazy puppy if can . Need more planning but i run out of idea . He not in the mood , still waiting for his text or call . I will keep waiting till he text or call me . I will not sleep like last night .

Note For You

I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything .I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything . I'm sorry for everything .

Once again from my deepest heart , i'm truly sorry . I love you no matter what .

Nowadays People

Wanna know what thought about nowadays people .
 

Nowadays people , not all of them you can trust fully . Because nowadays people maybe will be good in front of us but maybe will stab us from back . They maybe will lie for taking advantages on something or someone . These people maybe cannot make them as best friend because they maybe be friend not because of the person but because of things that maybe will make them known by everybody in other meaning famous or perhaps popular in among . Some of them be another person that not who they are . They like to talk other people before    see in mirror about them self . They proud with what they done or said . They just a short thinker sometime their thinking non logical at all that the funny part and silly some more . They hard to be true every condition . They rather fake their face in picture but in reality they can't fake their face . Some of them like to create a incident or story that never happen to beg for sympathy or popularity or whatsover . Some of them didn't realize that they are not perfect because nobody is perfect in this world . They just want to be perfect and they want nobody can be top of them . Some of them really selfish . Some of them think apologize is a humiliating action or will drop their standard . They didn't realize that they got weakness , they forget about it . They always think that they always right and never wrong . They easily change when meet something or someone new . This is my opinion about nowadays people , don't get mad with what i write .

COOL !

Lazy puppy , i miss every moment we share our story and laughter then we laugh for no reason . I truly miss you a lot . Hope time pass even faster like F1 vrooooommmmm ! LOL xD

Twilight Breaking Dawn

Yes , i'm the big fan of twilight movie . Gonna wait for this movie and i'm so gooonnaaa watch this .

Eyes

See my eyes indeed is small . See i got eyebags below my eyes , is getting darker this is all because midnight sleep or perhaps no sleep at all , well need to study for biggie exam so what can i do . But after the biggie exam gonna get rid of it for good .