Thursday, December 3, 2009
Sickness
Finally i'm out of the hospital . I can't stand the smell of the medicine in the hospital , i hate it . Let me blogging how i check in to hospital , this is all because i take too much of sleeping pill it mean overdose . I didn't mean to take too much , is was accident . Last night i'm so sleepy then i take the sleeping pills , i got sleeping trouble . i must eat those pills so that i can sleep well . after at hospital my heart stop beating and can breath by myself but thank God , that i can breath again and my heart start beating again . Because of my condition , Son become worry and panic . hehe . Son , i know everything about last night text message while i pass out . hehe . it was sweet lol . =] By the way , thank you for worrying about me . i appreciate your kindness .
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
There Is A Star
Someones looking at a star tonight
From sea or plain it's burning bright
A star of guidance a star to wish
A star of love and peace establish
In the night will twinkle, glisten
To wishes, prayers, always listen
There for all faith and creed
A shining light for all in need
So the next time you gaze your star
Think that someone else in land afar
Is gazing wishing just like you
All in hope that dreams come true
From sea or plain it's burning bright
A star of guidance a star to wish
A star of love and peace establish
In the night will twinkle, glisten
To wishes, prayers, always listen
There for all faith and creed
A shining light for all in need
So the next time you gaze your star
Think that someone else in land afar
Is gazing wishing just like you
All in hope that dreams come true
A Lonely Star
A lonely star, of the galaxy
Is the feeling I have about myself.
A lonely star, which does shine, till love helps
And when sadness captures, the star feels lonely.
Lonely, so very lonely
Is the way the star feels, even when around other stars
Is the way the loneliness has become.
The star is lonely, without the feeling of love which is pure
Is the way the star feels, which is very lonely.
Is the feeling I have about myself.
A lonely star, which does shine, till love helps
And when sadness captures, the star feels lonely.
Lonely, so very lonely
Is the way the star feels, even when around other stars
Is the way the loneliness has become.
The star is lonely, without the feeling of love which is pure
Is the way the star feels, which is very lonely.
Potrait of a Friend
I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts,
or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will
search for answers.
I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.
I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.
Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.
Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,
and help you when you ask.
I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.
I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,
room to be yourself.
I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.
I can't tell you who you are.
I can only love you and be your friend.
or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will
search for answers.
I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.
I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.
Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.
Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,
and help you when you ask.
I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.
I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,
room to be yourself.
I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.
I can't tell you who you are.
I can only love you and be your friend.
I Heart ?
Wish I had concentrated,
They said love was complicated,
But it's something i just fell into,
And it was over-rated
But just look what i've created
I came out alive but i'm black and blue-ue
Before you ask me if i'm alright,
Think about what i,
Had to do-oo, yeah
Wake up and smell the break-up
Fix my heart, put on my make-up
Another mess i didn't plan,
And i'll bet, you thought you'd beat me,
Wish you could only see,
I've got an i heart question mark,
Written on the back of my hand.
I'd be fine if you just walked by,
But you had to talk about why,
You were wrong and i was right,
But i can't believe you made me,
Sit at home and cry like a baby,
Wait right by the phone every night,
And now you ask about you and i,
There's no you and i,
Remember what you put me through,
I had to,
Wake up and smell the break-up,
Fix my heart put on my make-up,
Another mess i didn't plan,
And i'll bet, you thought you'd beat me
I wish you'd could only see
I got an i heart question mark,
Written on the back of my hand
And when you're home alone at night,
You'll still wonder
Why you took everything i had, oh baby
I had a lot about you and i,
There's no you and i,
And i know,
Someday you will...
Wake up and smell the break-up,
Realize that we won't make-up
It didn't go the way you planed,
And you'll know you didn't beat me,
When you look down and see,
I've got an i heart question mark
Written on the back of my hand,
Written on the back of my hand
An i heart question mark, yeah
Written on the back of my hand
They said love was complicated,
But it's something i just fell into,
And it was over-rated
But just look what i've created
I came out alive but i'm black and blue-ue
Before you ask me if i'm alright,
Think about what i,
Had to do-oo, yeah
Wake up and smell the break-up
Fix my heart, put on my make-up
Another mess i didn't plan,
And i'll bet, you thought you'd beat me,
Wish you could only see,
I've got an i heart question mark,
Written on the back of my hand.
I'd be fine if you just walked by,
But you had to talk about why,
You were wrong and i was right,
But i can't believe you made me,
Sit at home and cry like a baby,
Wait right by the phone every night,
And now you ask about you and i,
There's no you and i,
Remember what you put me through,
I had to,
Wake up and smell the break-up,
Fix my heart put on my make-up,
Another mess i didn't plan,
And i'll bet, you thought you'd beat me
I wish you'd could only see
I got an i heart question mark,
Written on the back of my hand
And when you're home alone at night,
You'll still wonder
Why you took everything i had, oh baby
I had a lot about you and i,
There's no you and i,
And i know,
Someday you will...
Wake up and smell the break-up,
Realize that we won't make-up
It didn't go the way you planed,
And you'll know you didn't beat me,
When you look down and see,
I've got an i heart question mark
Written on the back of my hand,
Written on the back of my hand
An i heart question mark, yeah
Written on the back of my hand
Tied Together With A Smile
Seems the only one who doesn't see your beauty
Is the face in the mirror looking back at you
You walk around here thinking you're not pretty
But that's not true, cause I know you...
Hold on, baby, you're losing it
The water's high, you're jumping into it
And letting go... and no one knows
That you cry, but you don't tell anyone
That you might not be the golden one
And you're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone
I guess it's true that love was all you wanted
Cause you're giving it away like it's extra change
Hoping it will end up in his pocket
But he leaves you out like a penny in the rain
Oh, cause it's not his price to pay
Not his price to pay...
You're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone... oh
Goodbye, baby
Goodbye, baby
With a smile, baby, baby
Is the face in the mirror looking back at you
You walk around here thinking you're not pretty
But that's not true, cause I know you...
Hold on, baby, you're losing it
The water's high, you're jumping into it
And letting go... and no one knows
That you cry, but you don't tell anyone
That you might not be the golden one
And you're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone
I guess it's true that love was all you wanted
Cause you're giving it away like it's extra change
Hoping it will end up in his pocket
But he leaves you out like a penny in the rain
Oh, cause it's not his price to pay
Not his price to pay...
You're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone... oh
Goodbye, baby
Goodbye, baby
With a smile, baby, baby
Quotes and Sayings
1 - Always laugh when you can. It is cheapest medicine.
2 - You can't have everything....where would you put it?
3 - If you can't see the bright side of life, polish the dull side.
4 - When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.
5 - You know the speed of light, so what's the speed of dark?
6 - When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded.
7 - Everybody wants to go to heaven, but nobody wants to die.
8 - Everything has been figured out, except how to live.
9 - No matter how bad things get, you got to go on living, even if it kills you.
10 - If you can't convince them, confuse them.
2 - You can't have everything....where would you put it?
3 - If you can't see the bright side of life, polish the dull side.
4 - When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.
5 - You know the speed of light, so what's the speed of dark?
8 - Everything has been figured out, except how to live.
9 - No matter how bad things get, you got to go on living, even if it kills you.
10 - If you can't convince them, confuse them.
Monday, November 30, 2009
Sugar
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Rain
rain
rain, rain, rain heal my heart that is broken apart
rain, rain, rain up above from the skies
rain, rain, rain pour here and clean my soul
rain, rain, rain there will be rain here, there will be rain there
rain, rain, rain wash away my pain
rain, rain i will do anything for you to cover my tears
rain, rain, rain heal my heart that is broken apart
rain, rain, rain up above from the skies
rain, rain, rain pour here and clean my soul
rain, rain, rain there will be rain here, there will be rain there
rain, rain, rain wash away my pain
rain, rain i will do anything for you to cover my tears
Habit
Hmmm ... Let me blogging about my bad habit .
My very first habits is when time for bed i need my bear blanket , if not i can't sleep . then i need to bite handkerchief till morning if sun already up , the handkerchief that i bite will be wet , hehe .. ewww .. smelly . then i like to bite finger nail , this cause when i was a kid , when i get panic i will bite my finger nail . But now when i fell boring i will bite finger nail , if my mom see me doing that she will scold me . huhu . i need to change my bad habits ... my friend also help me to stop that habits . now i get less bite finger nail . hehe . later i will never bite my finger nail again . People says that a person who always bite finger nail is a person who always thinking . I don't that is true or not . what else to blog about ?
My very first habits is when time for bed i need my bear blanket , if not i can't sleep . then i need to bite handkerchief till morning if sun already up , the handkerchief that i bite will be wet , hehe .. ewww .. smelly . then i like to bite finger nail , this cause when i was a kid , when i get panic i will bite my finger nail . But now when i fell boring i will bite finger nail , if my mom see me doing that she will scold me . huhu . i need to change my bad habits ... my friend also help me to stop that habits . now i get less bite finger nail . hehe . later i will never bite my finger nail again . People says that a person who always bite finger nail is a person who always thinking . I don't that is true or not . what else to blog about ?
Picture Of Myself
Here is my picture for everyone to see
No one else looks exactly like me
My hair, my eyes are different you see
My smile, my laughter are special to me
My nose, my mouth, hands and feet
make my features quite unique
So when you look upon my face
and see my "Angelshine"
You will know that I am special
because its all.l.l mine.
No one else looks exactly like me
My hair, my eyes are different you see
My smile, my laughter are special to me
My nose, my mouth, hands and feet
make my features quite unique
So when you look upon my face
and see my "Angelshine"
You will know that I am special
because its all.l.l mine.
My Feeling
When I am sad, I feel like crying. (rub eyes)
When I am proud, I feel like trying. (head held high)
When I feel curious, I want to know. (look up, wondering)
When I'm impatient, I want to go! (cross arms, tap foot)
When I feel angry, I look this way. (angry look)
When I feel happy, I smile all day. (big smile)
When I am puzzled, I make a shrug. (shrug shoulders)
When I feel loving, I want to hug. (hug yourself)
When I am proud, I feel like trying. (head held high)
When I feel curious, I want to know. (look up, wondering)
When I'm impatient, I want to go! (cross arms, tap foot)
When I feel angry, I look this way. (angry look)
When I feel happy, I smile all day. (big smile)
When I am puzzled, I make a shrug. (shrug shoulders)
When I feel loving, I want to hug. (hug yourself)
Baby , Don't Break My Heart Slow
i like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky
I was believing in you
Was I mistaken do you mean
Do you mean what you say
When you say our love could last forever
But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow
I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you'd sing to me
Every time things got rocky
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky
I was believing in you
Was I mistaken do you mean
Do you mean what you say
When you say our love could last forever
But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow
I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you'd sing to me
Every time things got rocky
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Problem.Think.Open
PROBLEM --- I got bad issue with my BF , he get mad when i did't contact him . I admit that was true and i'm sorry . It was accident , i got no pocket money for my hp credit , if i ask from my parents , they get mad with me . But i always get money from my grandma . hehe . Shhhhsssss ,don't tell anyone . hehehe . am i a good grand daughter or bad grand daughter ? till now , still not yet settle and my BF say relax then we will settle but when ? all he can say is relax , relax and relax . and now he did't want to on his hp anymore . what a shit ! i will settle it ASAP ! wish me luck .
THINK --- Now i need think what the best thing for me . Which ways will make me happy all the time ? i already found that way . When i'm with Son , i feel very happy and laugh all the time . No tears or sadness just happy hour . Just like old time with Mr.Panda but that was a history . I will thrown away my memories about Mr.Panda .
OPEN --- I need to learn open my heart again and accept new things like Son says to me . I will try my best . now i open my eyes and see the world and the world is just awesome . Finally , i get back some part of myself . My heart starting to heal back and i hope my heart will never fall down again for the second time .
p/s : Son , Thank Q for your advice for me . I really appreciate it and i will always remember it . By the way , i won't forget my promise to you .
THINK --- Now i need think what the best thing for me . Which ways will make me happy all the time ? i already found that way . When i'm with Son , i feel very happy and laugh all the time . No tears or sadness just happy hour . Just like old time with Mr.Panda but that was a history . I will thrown away my memories about Mr.Panda .
OPEN --- I need to learn open my heart again and accept new things like Son says to me . I will try my best . now i open my eyes and see the world and the world is just awesome . Finally , i get back some part of myself . My heart starting to heal back and i hope my heart will never fall down again for the second time .
p/s : Son , Thank Q for your advice for me . I really appreciate it and i will always remember it . By the way , i won't forget my promise to you .
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Zero
I don't want to blog today . I have no idea . By the way , i have some new shirt and accessories for my closet . a peace tshirt and miss trouble tshirt . i always wanted a peace tshirt , finally i got it but still not enough . still searching for more peace tshirt . Today , what a bored day , miss SON ! I also buy some new shirt and pant for my dad because he always complaint no new shirt . haha ! i dinner at PH , so full feel like want to thrown out . ewww .. My relationship with my BF quite good . Finally i can forget some of my past about MR.PANDA . huhu ! so hard to do that , but forget him day by day . i hope there is no thing around me that can make me flash about mr.panda . Pray for me that i can success .
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
A Place In This World
I don't know what I want, so don't ask me
Cause I'm still trying to figure it out
Don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking
Trying to see through the rain coming down
Even though I'm not the only one
Who feels the way I do
Cause I'm still trying to figure it out
Don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking
Trying to see through the rain coming down
Even though I'm not the only one
Who feels the way I do
I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in
This world
Got the radio on, my old blue jeans
And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine
Could you tell me what more do I need
And tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah
But that's ok
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in
This world
Got the radio on, my old blue jeans
And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine
Could you tell me what more do I need
And tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah
But that's ok
Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission
But I'm ready to fly by myself .
But I'm ready to fly by myself .
Decision
I already make my own decision .. Me and Mr.panda is just a history , no use for me to remember Mr.panda anymore . Only will make me cry at late night . No use for me to keep wishing to a wishing star about Mr.panda , he will never come back anymore . Now for me to start a new life without Mr.panda . Like Son say , no use de . haha !
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Should or Not ?
hello again BLOG ! hmm ... should i force mysefl to love my new BF , but i'm the one suffer right ? should i break up with my new BF but i feel pity for him ? haiyo . dunno what to do .. BLANK ! I got a friend , but let me call him 'SON' hehe .. He told me to forget Mr.Panda , throw all of my memories with Mr.panda . huhu . Where do i get the strength to forget so much sweet memories with Mr.panda ? This is the part i hate in chapter LOVE , that is BREAK UP AND FORGET MEMORIES . OMG ! Son , help me lol . All Son need to do is knock my head then forget everything but Son said no use if knock head but use heart . How oo ? I so tired of my life . I need to find my new life , all i need is the other side of the door . At there i can find back every pieces of me or my heart . huhu ! Feel just like want to DIE ! Since i knew Son , i often laugh too hard . For few month i never laugh like that . Miss my old life but sadly i need to run away from that life since that unexpected day . I AM SO TIRED ! Tired of what ? Tired of swimming and jump . the back of my body full of pain . Feel like the bone already broken . haha !
Friday, November 20, 2009
Jump then Fall
i lost my direction . Don't where to go . Everything not the same anymore . I can't go back to my life before and cannot start a new life anymore . I'm stuck forever . Wonder why Mr.panda doing , thinking ??? Wish he were beside me . huh .. he not longer mine , i lost my true love . i know true love come once never come twice . now is all gone and fade away . I can't heal myself . What should i do ??? I need to find every part of me but where to start and how ??? Why i get a fate like this ??? I must be patient to this fate . When night fall down , i cry a lot because thinking about mr.panda . When rain fall down , i walk into the rain to cover my teardrops . I could go back to every laugh but i don't want go there anymore because don't have meaning for me anymore . Now what i do is be Dr.Love . haha . Now i have a new BF but he can't change mr.panda place in my heart . Never ever . Deeply in my heart still love mr.panda . Maybe mr.panda don't love me anymore . But nevermind , just let me know what i feel in my heart . Because no one know what i feel . If there is someone know what i feel , thank you ! I don't need sympathy from anyone .
Fourth Letter From Mr.Panda
The letter that MR.PANDA wrote for me when we still together .
( I LOVE YOU )
Bby..
B ingin bby tau bahawa yg b sgt sayangkan bby !! sgt cintakan bby !! Bby.. B trus trang la yahrr..sebenarnya ,,hya bby jak yg brada dihati b & nama bby tlah terukir d'hati b ney .. B trus trang .. B xblh khlangan bby .. xboleh hdup tnpa bby .. xboleh tinggalkan bby .. B xdpt bygkn bagaimana sengsaranya hidup b jika bby tiada d'sisi b :-( .. B mohon rayuan dae bby bahawa jgn sesekali pergi dae cc b ato b'jauhan dae b .. jgn !! :-( B harap,, hbgn kta akn b'kekalan hgga hembusan nafas b yg t'akhir .. dan jika nyawa b duluan d'ambil dae bby .. B mohon supaya bby teruskan k'hdpan bby . B xmau tgk bby dlm k'daan t'seksa ato sengsara .. B hya mau lihat bby dalam k'daan yg aman 'n' bahagia ya :D .. one more .. Apa yg telah k'ta lakukan , etu smua akn brada dlm m'mry ingatan B buat slamanya .. Satu hari nanti .. B pasti akan melamar bby.. Bby tggu jk ya !! hehe :D B pasti!!!! satu hari nanti .. kta pasti akn Bhagia buat slamanya ummuahmauh3*!! I Love You !!
Bby jdi pmpuan yg sjati ya - Blh kn??
jga prangai spt prangai pmpuan ..
pdulikan apa org kta :) ..
yg pntg kta Bhagia..
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