Say What ?

I'm so tired and my whole body is in pain . Stop yelling at me , mom . *sigh . I get it . I know what i should do . Don't keep control me , i can't stand it . Study still be the first in my life , i won't forget that . But i just need some privacy and to release my tension . Let me online for a few days , it will calm my mind . Please . I know i will sit for SPM this year . School ? Got a lot homework to do then go to decorate the class . Damn that class teacher keep force us to decorate the class . Not that we don't want decorate the class , is just we got too much homework , can't teacher understand our situation ? What a life as teenager , every year grow older and older . Life challenge getting harder and harder , when will i get peace ?  I want peaceful . Sickness ? Well no improvement about my sickness , is getting worse . I got one new medicine , because of the new medicine my whole body is in pain , the effect i guess . I just need to keep strong to past trough day by day of my life . Asroy ? Our relationship is going strong and happy all the time . But sometime he like to big joke and that kinda annoy me but i just be patient .  Sonsyafeeq ? Well we just being friend like mother and son , is kind of cute . Can you still call me ' mumysepet ' ? I miss when you call me like that , i like it so much . Akiey ? He just being my lazy brother . He still didn't get his haircut but he says he will get his haircut on March when he go to kk . Last few days , he told me that he has a kind of feeling toward a girl . Haha . My brother is falling in love . =) My BFF ? Is great having them around me and in my life , i'm happy with them . Sorry girls , i didn't have the time to hang out with you all but if i free i will hang out with you all , i promsise . Well that all . Thank for reading my blog .

Take Notice

For this few days or weeks , i will seldom online in blogspot or facebook . 

I'm sorry for the reader because i seldom update my blog .

Hope you all understand .

but

ASAP i will update my blog .

Sincerely by 

bebe

Holiday

Hello , hello , hello . I'm gonna paste a post that is real short .Yes is holiday of CNY and today is valentine days but i'm not celebrating valentine even i have a bf . Yes i can get more bucks yaayaaya , i can buy what i want now . By the way , i will going to sandakan with my cousin . Last night my cousin keep asking me the same question " do you go to sandakan " . *sigh . Then i say yes , is kind of annoying but nevermind lol . Yesterday i cut my hair at salon then went back home my mum cut my hair to repair it . After that i suddenly i get a high fever until night , it's because the effect of the vitamin i ate .

Soon , i guess

 

Never knew i get this kind of things . The effect in my body started to came out , i can feel it and it totally killing me . Damn it , am i going to die soon ? This question keep appear in my mind but i gonna try to think about that and started to think the bright side . Yeah , think of the bright side will calm me down . The result no come out yet . *sigh . Calm down girl , relax , chill out . It's gonna be okay . Well CNY is near , can't wait , eat , eat and eat . Haha , since now i started to eat a lot . Dunno why i be like that but don't worry , my weight not easily gain . But i guess u can't eat a lot , my mom will control my eating habit's . Still got one more things to buy that is skinny pant . That's all . My eyes started to get a eyebags because this lately i didn't sleep well or earlier because wanna finnish my homework . Super duper exhausted , mami when we went to do facial ?  

Cause bebe don't care

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Hey yay ... Bebe is talking at here or typing  here . Gonna start blogging now so pay attention . CNY is coming now , can't wait to get the bucks . This saturday all of my family part of my dad will gather at my aunt house to have a big dinner , gonna eat delicious food cook by my grandmother . Yummy ! Well about going to sandakan and go to island , is been cancel . So this CNY holiday , i just stay at tawau , felt kinda bored but nevermind i will get more time to finish my school work that given by teacher . Got a lot homework , gonna be patient to do all that . By the way what is love for me , what is the meaning of love ? I don't what is love . Every step i take , every move i make , i lost with no directions . They way to move forward already vanish in my eyes , i can't see the way through other side of the door . I'm stuck right here but keep moving forward but still can't reach the other side of the door . What a suck life , sometime is up sometimes is down . Life is like spinning tire . No one can save me . I still keep taking medicine , i thought start the month of February i will stop taking but unfortunately still keep taking medicine . Suffer , suffer and suffer . 

revenir de bebe !

Hello there ! Today i went to town to get my spectacle and i bought a new handbag , a black one . Hard to find a trendy handbag at here but finally i found one , Thank God . Now i'm feeling glad because i get want i want . My spectacle maybe some people will say like NERD but i didn't care at all because i like to wear a large spectacle , and i dunno why i like . I keep thinking what else that i not yet buy but i think is already enough seem that i spend over budget already my parents just keep talking about my budget and complaint that they not yet buy any shirt or pant for CNY of this year . I just tell them , why didn't go buy some then they say didn't have the time to shop . I'm like OMG ! But mami and papi don't blame on your children lol . *sigh . I miss my babyboo ! I wanna meet him again but i didn't get the chance or didn't have free time to meet him . This CNY maybe me and my family and other family will went to sandakan then go to an island . Hope papi decide to go there , i wanna relax my mind at there . So papi please , make it happen . Well about last night is kinda fun because last night is reunion night of 5 person that is childhood friend . I miss them damn much especially yaquti . I sing two song that is Taylor Swift - Today was a fairytale and Two is better than one . My voice didn't sound that good but they ask me to keep singing . Well thank Q for your support my friend .

Bébé , new name .

 Well . Bebe will be my new name . People start call me ' bebe ' , i guess i started to like people call me like that but don't worry i still use my old nickname . And i got new patner in my life , who will stand beside me and give me love and care . His name is Asroy , he 17 . He not a good looking guy but i didn't care much about the look . I like to see when he wearing a nerd glasses , but don't worry baby we will be a nerd couple . Hee =D . So sweet ! Can't wait to meet you again . Yesterday was akiey ' my brother ' birthday , i didn't get the time to buy him a present but i will and i just wish for him and sing a birthday song for him . Is kind of funny . I just can't stop laughing last night . Haha =D . Well today got school , at 10.30 a.m. till 11.30 a.m. we got to decorate the class unfortunately , many of us didn't bring enough material for the decoration and our class teacher scolded us . What i hate most is teacher ask us to stay back on next monday to decoration .*sigh . 1 week till Chinese New Year can't wait to get more buck . Everything new ! Mami i wanna follow aunt to Sandakan and island . I wanna wanna wanna wanna wannna follow . Please please please . 

Amanda mind says : ???

 

Yay , i'm blur mean ??? . If you still don't get what i mean . Just let it be . Well gonna start my story now . Where should i start ? Let's start about syafeeq , hmm . our relationship didn't work out as what i want , doesn't seem like couple , so ask to end relationship and remain as friend , i think this is the best way . Today , me and my friend went to uncle yahya place to design t-shirt for fiesta at school then i talk a lot with uncle yahya . Uncle yahya body become more tough . Akiey birthday is almost near , i'm on my way to collect bucks to buy him a present . Tonight is start mathematics tuition , well i'm not ready yet and i feel sleepy and my friend didn't show up . i miss her . Then next monday start tuition english with Teacher Ida . I miss her too . Hee =D Now i'm flying solo and maybe didn't have time to search for love or anything about partner love . What i do is focus on my study . That's the important one .

Hell !

Hello .. Mello ! Well been a week didn't blogging because of the worst internet service at home . Suck ! Now the internet is better , glad =) Well first topic is SCHOOL , well got a lot work to do , got a lot of presentation , got a lot of project to do .. Fuyoooo . So tired . Then , as a captain of KP , also got a lot work to deal with . Non stop . . . Second topic is SYAFEEQ , well i get back with syafeeq again . Happy again but hope will never end . IlyMOHDSYAFEEQ . Ever feel apart but our heart is near by . I miss everything about syafeeq . I wanna meet you like our first meet . I miss that day , ever at that day we are as friend . Third topic is TUITION , yeah i'm gonna start tuition tomorrow night , can't wait to meet my two friend , that is fazrina and puteri . Got a lot of story need to tell them , and got a lot story to tell my uncle because he's the one understand me . Fourth topic is CHINESE NEW YEAR , haha , i spend over bucks on clothes , pants , shoes and etc . I'm gonna run out of bucks , mami i need more bucks yaay . I'm gonna change my spectacle , but don't know which kind i want . I found one that is RayBan but too expensive . Well need to find wallet and handbag . Can't wait to shopping again . My schedule is full because of my cousin . sigh* . I'm gonna stop here now . Wanna have my breakie . Bye , readers ! Meet you all on the next story . =)

RollerCoaster

Aaarrrggghhh ..... My stomach got butterfly , haha just kidding =D . Well already few days i didn't update my blog . Because i'm kind of busy this few day , busy for sport day and now sport day already over and got projek for PSK and school fair . Didn't plan yet what to do on that day , but gonna left that for teacher decide . I'm exshausted , i'm in sick . At night got high fever , nose bleed . Yay , is my fault didn't take my medice and the magic is happen in my life . That is syafeeq , his back into my life . I'm super dupper happy now . Actually , i truly miss him since the day he ask for break up , i'm totally miss him . Yeah is true i miss him and i love him so damn much ! Only Allah know my feeling toward to him and how deeply i miss and love him . Darlings , yes i do love you . Don't you ever leave my side , stay beside me . I need you in my life till forever . I can't believe i'm fall in love so deeply , i will never let this feeling go again . I'm hold it tight in my hand and my heart . Syafeeq will do what i do ? Yes , i will hug and kiss you when we meet again , i promise . Keep my promise wokey ? and about the ice cream , later i treat you . Don't worry i never forget my promise . I still young to forget thing . We start all over again . Don't believe what people say about you , me and us . Don't bother them . We will live happily . Trust me .

It's Over

Wokey . Here i go again with a single life mean flying solo . And yes indeed i'm solo again . But i'm gonna live it up and plan what i'm gonna do next . But the chapter about love , maybe will stop it from now . I will close my heart for a while . Last night , me and syafeeq officially already break up and i don't know what is the reason , and i'm sorry if my message is rude . I just feel very fed up .last night . Gonna stop talking about me and syafeeq , is just make me sad . I feel like a doll , easily to been play by people but i'm not , i'm also a human being , i got feeling too . I'm just gonna do what i like , that is hang out with friend and create song like i always do . Oh god , what did i do , until you give me a fate like this , i had enough with all this fake face and fake feeling , first say truly then last say break . what the hell , it drive me crazy . Will you just give me a peace , i wanna rest !

Roll Of Life

Damn it ! Each day getting more busy and more work need to do . I never knew SPM school life was so hard , yes know i'm feeling it and it so horrible . Feel like wanna pass out . Then i got sport training but i wanna quit it because i got kawad to do , wish me luck =) I miss hubby so much ! Darling , are you ok at there ? Every night baby feel like wanna hug hubby but can't , so sad =( . Just can imagine . Baby at here didn't naughty but tired . *sigh . Hubby don't you naughty at there ark . Baby love hubby so much ! ily ...

I❤MOHDSYAFEEQ

Tired . Sick

Hulo ! Well for this few days i didn't update my blog and i'm sorry for those reader for waiting new story in my blog . This few days i'm kind of busy deal with school stuff , you know such as homework and blah blah blah . Yesterday was the first week of curriculum , what a tired day in permainan dalaman , my job is as assistant of leader , in  kadet polis my job is as the leader ( got a lot thing to do and damn for those people voted me ) and lastly in kelab sejarah my job as secretary ( make hand tired of writing ) but nevermind because by do some work , i will get some points . Yeah ! Hubby hp is broken so hard to contact with him , i miss him a lot ! Gonna stop at here now , dunno what to blog about . Goodbye .

Damn It and Love It

Ahhhhhhhhhh ! So tired got a lot of homework , the Geo teacher is crazy , she ask us to do note about form 4 geo but i already done it but she say do it again . wtf ! Tired of sport training , i'm into running . Glad just need to run . hehe =) The sun is extremely hot , just feel like wanna pass out LOL . So the sport day is in the end of month January , can't wait for the sport day . Because this will be the last for me , so i'm gonna enjoy it . Homework , homework , homework just drive me crazy and spin my head around . English , Geo , Malay and etc . What can i say about is , this is spm life . Just be patient . Hate when talk about school , teacher always scold if didn't answer her question , some teacher make us feel sleepy . And the place i sit in class , didn't got fan , so hot and make me sweat . Yahh , the situation in class same as last year , didn't change at all , all living in their own world , got enemies and blah blah blah . Stupid o that person , like hell o . When people didn't do wrong , those people mouth just can't stop talk bad about another person , maybe those people feel their are perfect , wtf ! Totally hate it , just wanna beat them up but just be patient because this year is my big year , don't want get into discipline problem . Well , my class got another new student from kk , wow when she speak english so clear . Gonna stop talking about school .

Hmm . i miss mohd syafeeq . i love mohd syafeeq . Wanna meet u but so far away . When we gonna meet again ?

INEEDMOHDSYAFEEQ

What A Suck

OMG ! School , school , school . *sigh . I'm not ready yet , my shoulder is in pain because so long didn't carry school bag . Today what a day , very tired and glad there is no other person bag is same with mine , that's my me an one & only . yeah ! Peace baby ☮ . But tomorrow will start stay at school till 4 o'clock for sport training , but i in the red team so only stay on Monday and Wednesday . I gonna be into running only but teacher must me sign into other kind . I hate it , my skin gonna be black again but nevermind i can use sunblock . My mom always scold me if my skin become black . Just now at school got my few friend , they all wink their eyebrow . I know want their meaning is , they wanted me to be the captain of the cadet police for curriculum . I'm gonna lost my voice if i be the captain . Yeah , my hp didn't keep by my mom , i guess my mom is forget about it and i don't wanna remind her because i wanna text message with hubby . I miss him a lot ! Feel like wanna cry but he say cannot cry . Buhhhuuuuu .... My dear friend , stop wink at me , you all make me nervous and i forget pay for my name tag for last year . haha ! Lazy go to me the teacher because the teacher teach in the evening and i'm in the morning hard to meet her . Well the teacher will chase me until i pay , no worry . Mom , i need more bucks . Syafeeq , always loving you ! Bye for now = )

I'm his angel

I’m his angel the one who looks over him
I’m his angel the one who cares for him
I’m his angel the one who loves him
I’m his angel the one who has beautiful brown eyes
I’m his angel the one who has beautiful dark brown hair
I’m his angel I will be there when he gets hurt
I’m his angel I will be the one that is always on his mind
I am the angel that keeps him breathing
I am the angel of his dreams
I am the angel that keeps him alive
I am his angel that will cheer him up when he is sad

p/s - for syafeeQ .

Music

Music is what makes you move
Music is what makes you groove
Music can be good or bad depending on how its used
Music can make you choose different clothes to wear
Music can make you change your hair
Music can make you choose new friends
Music can make you want to dance
Music can make you fight
Music can make everything alright
Music can take care of you when your alone
Music can make everything feel like home
Music can harm and take away
Music can make you want to stay
Music is the only friend I have
Music is my mom and dad
Music is what keeps me alive
When I feel like I can't survive

Making A Lover

To the world I want to shout 'I love you'
To love you and have you as my baby boy
Dazzling, you're always my star
I'll protect you
I can always be waiting for you

At the end of my exhausting day there's only one person that can make me laugh
There's only one person brightening my difficult life
At the start of yet another day, I can just think of your pretty smile
I'm not happy with anyone else next to me, but you
Under these Heavens, I promise you, I'll give you everything I have

To the world I want to shout 'I love you'
To love you and have you as my baby boy
Dazzling, you're always my star
I'll protect you
I can always be waiting for you

Why is it now, I feel I have all of the world
thank you my single angel, it feels like I'm loving you for the first time
Under these Heavens, I promise you, I want to be your all

To the world I want to shout 'I love you'
To love you and have you as my baby boy
Dazzling, you're always my star
I'll protect you
I can always be waiting for you

We only need to make one promise
I'm swearing on the Heavens
I'll keep loving you until the very sun burns out
Oh my love~

I pray you allow me this~
That you accept me to be your man
To my final day
My heart will not change
I can always be waiting for you
Hubby I will forever be with you
You alone, I will forever....
love you....

Favorite Star Of Mine .

Far above in that sky,
Is a small star of mine,
Star where life exists,
That star shines brighter then light.

It is the star of fascination for me,
It is the star of my fantasy,
It is the star of my dreams,
It is the star that belongs to me.

A star that is all alone,
A star that is full of love,
A star where I have to reach,
A star of my dreams.

It is the star that lies beyond the sun,
It is the star of ultimate truth,
It is star of love and peace,
It is star where my soul lives.

It is the one to call me,
It is the one to attract me,
It is the one I’ll love to see,
It is the one I have to reach.

O Star !

  o star, how i love you
o star, won't you love me too
o star, you say who am i and i say am i but we both know who we are
o star, just as you know me i know you
o star, won't you shine on me once again
o star, if it weren't for you i would dead
o star, go back to your head
o star, deliver to her my secret message love
o star, fly true and fly fast as a dove
o star, be there with her and tell her i want to be there with her
o star, please deliver this message lest i choke on life
o star, i will now fill
o star, fill you with my secret love message so that i may not kill
o star, kill myself out of agony
o star, please let no one know this message but my sweet
o star, pass on the message to only her lest i die of heat
o star, be true
o star, on your path to deliver my love do not go askew
o star, find the one love find her o star find her and tell
o star, . tell my angel that i lover her 

p/s : star is my thing !