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Yay , i'm blur mean ??? . If you still don't get what i mean . Just let it be . Well gonna start my story now . Where should i start ? Let's start about syafeeq , hmm . our relationship didn't work out as what i want , doesn't seem like couple , so ask to end relationship and remain as friend , i think this is the best way . Today , me and my friend went to uncle yahya place to design t-shirt for fiesta at school then i talk a lot with uncle yahya . Uncle yahya body become more tough . Akiey birthday is almost near , i'm on my way to collect bucks to buy him a present . Tonight is start mathematics tuition , well i'm not ready yet and i feel sleepy and my friend didn't show up . i miss her . Then next monday start tuition english with Teacher Ida . I miss her too . Hee =D Now i'm flying solo and maybe didn't have time to search for love or anything about partner love . What i do is focus on my study . That's the important one .

Hell !

Hello .. Mello ! Well been a week didn't blogging because of the worst internet service at home . Suck ! Now the internet is better , glad =) Well first topic is SCHOOL , well got a lot work to do , got a lot of presentation , got a lot of project to do .. Fuyoooo . So tired . Then , as a captain of KP , also got a lot work to deal with . Non stop . . . Second topic is SYAFEEQ , well i get back with syafeeq again . Happy again but hope will never end . IlyMOHDSYAFEEQ . Ever feel apart but our heart is near by . I miss everything about syafeeq . I wanna meet you like our first meet . I miss that day , ever at that day we are as friend . Third topic is TUITION , yeah i'm gonna start tuition tomorrow night , can't wait to meet my two friend , that is fazrina and puteri . Got a lot of story need to tell them , and got a lot story to tell my uncle because he's the one understand me . Fourth topic is CHINESE NEW YEAR , haha , i spend over bucks on clothes , pants , shoes and etc . I'm gonna run out of bucks , mami i need more bucks yaay . I'm gonna change my spectacle , but don't know which kind i want . I found one that is RayBan but too expensive . Well need to find wallet and handbag . Can't wait to shopping again . My schedule is full because of my cousin . sigh* . I'm gonna stop here now . Wanna have my breakie . Bye , readers ! Meet you all on the next story . =)

RollerCoaster

Aaarrrggghhh ..... My stomach got butterfly , haha just kidding =D . Well already few days i didn't update my blog . Because i'm kind of busy this few day , busy for sport day and now sport day already over and got projek for PSK and school fair . Didn't plan yet what to do on that day , but gonna left that for teacher decide . I'm exshausted , i'm in sick . At night got high fever , nose bleed . Yay , is my fault didn't take my medice and the magic is happen in my life . That is syafeeq , his back into my life . I'm super dupper happy now . Actually , i truly miss him since the day he ask for break up , i'm totally miss him . Yeah is true i miss him and i love him so damn much ! Only Allah know my feeling toward to him and how deeply i miss and love him . Darlings , yes i do love you . Don't you ever leave my side , stay beside me . I need you in my life till forever . I can't believe i'm fall in love so deeply , i will never let this feeling go again . I'm hold it tight in my hand and my heart . Syafeeq will do what i do ? Yes , i will hug and kiss you when we meet again , i promise . Keep my promise wokey ? and about the ice cream , later i treat you . Don't worry i never forget my promise . I still young to forget thing . We start all over again . Don't believe what people say about you , me and us . Don't bother them . We will live happily . Trust me .

It's Over

Wokey . Here i go again with a single life mean flying solo . And yes indeed i'm solo again . But i'm gonna live it up and plan what i'm gonna do next . But the chapter about love , maybe will stop it from now . I will close my heart for a while . Last night , me and syafeeq officially already break up and i don't know what is the reason , and i'm sorry if my message is rude . I just feel very fed up .last night . Gonna stop talking about me and syafeeq , is just make me sad . I feel like a doll , easily to been play by people but i'm not , i'm also a human being , i got feeling too . I'm just gonna do what i like , that is hang out with friend and create song like i always do . Oh god , what did i do , until you give me a fate like this , i had enough with all this fake face and fake feeling , first say truly then last say break . what the hell , it drive me crazy . Will you just give me a peace , i wanna rest !

Roll Of Life

Damn it ! Each day getting more busy and more work need to do . I never knew SPM school life was so hard , yes know i'm feeling it and it so horrible . Feel like wanna pass out . Then i got sport training but i wanna quit it because i got kawad to do , wish me luck =) I miss hubby so much ! Darling , are you ok at there ? Every night baby feel like wanna hug hubby but can't , so sad =( . Just can imagine . Baby at here didn't naughty but tired . *sigh . Hubby don't you naughty at there ark . Baby love hubby so much ! ily ...

I❤MOHDSYAFEEQ

Tired . Sick

Hulo ! Well for this few days i didn't update my blog and i'm sorry for those reader for waiting new story in my blog . This few days i'm kind of busy deal with school stuff , you know such as homework and blah blah blah . Yesterday was the first week of curriculum , what a tired day in permainan dalaman , my job is as assistant of leader , in  kadet polis my job is as the leader ( got a lot thing to do and damn for those people voted me ) and lastly in kelab sejarah my job as secretary ( make hand tired of writing ) but nevermind because by do some work , i will get some points . Yeah ! Hubby hp is broken so hard to contact with him , i miss him a lot ! Gonna stop at here now , dunno what to blog about . Goodbye .

Damn It and Love It

Ahhhhhhhhhh ! So tired got a lot of homework , the Geo teacher is crazy , she ask us to do note about form 4 geo but i already done it but she say do it again . wtf ! Tired of sport training , i'm into running . Glad just need to run . hehe =) The sun is extremely hot , just feel like wanna pass out LOL . So the sport day is in the end of month January , can't wait for the sport day . Because this will be the last for me , so i'm gonna enjoy it . Homework , homework , homework just drive me crazy and spin my head around . English , Geo , Malay and etc . What can i say about is , this is spm life . Just be patient . Hate when talk about school , teacher always scold if didn't answer her question , some teacher make us feel sleepy . And the place i sit in class , didn't got fan , so hot and make me sweat . Yahh , the situation in class same as last year , didn't change at all , all living in their own world , got enemies and blah blah blah . Stupid o that person , like hell o . When people didn't do wrong , those people mouth just can't stop talk bad about another person , maybe those people feel their are perfect , wtf ! Totally hate it , just wanna beat them up but just be patient because this year is my big year , don't want get into discipline problem . Well , my class got another new student from kk , wow when she speak english so clear . Gonna stop talking about school .

Hmm . i miss mohd syafeeq . i love mohd syafeeq . Wanna meet u but so far away . When we gonna meet again ?

INEEDMOHDSYAFEEQ

What A Suck

OMG ! School , school , school . *sigh . I'm not ready yet , my shoulder is in pain because so long didn't carry school bag . Today what a day , very tired and glad there is no other person bag is same with mine , that's my me an one & only . yeah ! Peace baby ☮ . But tomorrow will start stay at school till 4 o'clock for sport training , but i in the red team so only stay on Monday and Wednesday . I gonna be into running only but teacher must me sign into other kind . I hate it , my skin gonna be black again but nevermind i can use sunblock . My mom always scold me if my skin become black . Just now at school got my few friend , they all wink their eyebrow . I know want their meaning is , they wanted me to be the captain of the cadet police for curriculum . I'm gonna lost my voice if i be the captain . Yeah , my hp didn't keep by my mom , i guess my mom is forget about it and i don't wanna remind her because i wanna text message with hubby . I miss him a lot ! Feel like wanna cry but he say cannot cry . Buhhhuuuuu .... My dear friend , stop wink at me , you all make me nervous and i forget pay for my name tag for last year . haha ! Lazy go to me the teacher because the teacher teach in the evening and i'm in the morning hard to meet her . Well the teacher will chase me until i pay , no worry . Mom , i need more bucks . Syafeeq , always loving you ! Bye for now = )

I'm his angel

I’m his angel the one who looks over him
I’m his angel the one who cares for him
I’m his angel the one who loves him
I’m his angel the one who has beautiful brown eyes
I’m his angel the one who has beautiful dark brown hair
I’m his angel I will be there when he gets hurt
I’m his angel I will be the one that is always on his mind
I am the angel that keeps him breathing
I am the angel of his dreams
I am the angel that keeps him alive
I am his angel that will cheer him up when he is sad

p/s - for syafeeQ .

Music

Music is what makes you move
Music is what makes you groove
Music can be good or bad depending on how its used
Music can make you choose different clothes to wear
Music can make you change your hair
Music can make you choose new friends
Music can make you want to dance
Music can make you fight
Music can make everything alright
Music can take care of you when your alone
Music can make everything feel like home
Music can harm and take away
Music can make you want to stay
Music is the only friend I have
Music is my mom and dad
Music is what keeps me alive
When I feel like I can't survive

Making A Lover

To the world I want to shout 'I love you'
To love you and have you as my baby boy
Dazzling, you're always my star
I'll protect you
I can always be waiting for you

At the end of my exhausting day there's only one person that can make me laugh
There's only one person brightening my difficult life
At the start of yet another day, I can just think of your pretty smile
I'm not happy with anyone else next to me, but you
Under these Heavens, I promise you, I'll give you everything I have

To the world I want to shout 'I love you'
To love you and have you as my baby boy
Dazzling, you're always my star
I'll protect you
I can always be waiting for you

Why is it now, I feel I have all of the world
thank you my single angel, it feels like I'm loving you for the first time
Under these Heavens, I promise you, I want to be your all

To the world I want to shout 'I love you'
To love you and have you as my baby boy
Dazzling, you're always my star
I'll protect you
I can always be waiting for you

We only need to make one promise
I'm swearing on the Heavens
I'll keep loving you until the very sun burns out
Oh my love~

I pray you allow me this~
That you accept me to be your man
To my final day
My heart will not change
I can always be waiting for you
Hubby I will forever be with you
You alone, I will forever....
love you....

Favorite Star Of Mine .

Far above in that sky,
Is a small star of mine,
Star where life exists,
That star shines brighter then light.

It is the star of fascination for me,
It is the star of my fantasy,
It is the star of my dreams,
It is the star that belongs to me.

A star that is all alone,
A star that is full of love,
A star where I have to reach,
A star of my dreams.

It is the star that lies beyond the sun,
It is the star of ultimate truth,
It is star of love and peace,
It is star where my soul lives.

It is the one to call me,
It is the one to attract me,
It is the one I’ll love to see,
It is the one I have to reach.

O Star !

  o star, how i love you
o star, won't you love me too
o star, you say who am i and i say am i but we both know who we are
o star, just as you know me i know you
o star, won't you shine on me once again
o star, if it weren't for you i would dead
o star, go back to your head
o star, deliver to her my secret message love
o star, fly true and fly fast as a dove
o star, be there with her and tell her i want to be there with her
o star, please deliver this message lest i choke on life
o star, i will now fill
o star, fill you with my secret love message so that i may not kill
o star, kill myself out of agony
o star, please let no one know this message but my sweet
o star, pass on the message to only her lest i die of heat
o star, be true
o star, on your path to deliver my love do not go askew
o star, find the one love find her o star find her and tell
o star, . tell my angel that i lover her 

p/s : star is my thing !

Not Everyone Can Be Famous

Not everyone can be famous though many yearn for fame
In a World where millions do die without a penny to their name
And that any hope of an egalatarian Human World cannot exist cannot be denied
Whilst the gap between the haves and the have nots is growing ever wide
Their dreams of great wealth and fame millions do pursue
But for many of course such dreams never come true
And many who have great dreams die in poverty
For dreams are just dreams that's how it seems to be
Around the World today in every village, city and town
People daydream of great things of wealth and renown
And though to live in poverty only the saintlike would choose
For one for to win many destined to lose
To achieve in a big way seems a human need
And though many strive for success only few do succeed.

At This Age

Feeling safe
give and take
true and fake
first mistakes
distaste, haste
confrontational pace
a race
grand discrace
face to face
stained
claimed
framed
unnamed
and shamed
all page by page
to ingage
all at this age

It Says

I heard my Heart
It says, I am your Will Power.

I see my Eyes
It says, I am your Passion .

I listen my Voice
It says, I am your Confidence .

I read Books
It says, I am your Friend .

I walk on Road
It says, I will Help you to reach your destination .

I see Dreams
It says, I would like to be your Future .

I Am

  I am young and curious.
I wonder if its okay to watch loved ones make mistakes.
I hear gossip and laughter.
I see discrimination and judgments.
I want peace.
I am young and curious.
I pretend inner thoughts disappear over time.
I feel pure happiness coming for me.
I touch my reflection as it looks my way.
I worry about family and friends.
I cry when they're not okay.
I am young and curious.
I understand everything happens for a reason.
I say all is made difficult.
I dream that the clock ticking will freeze as time eliminates an unhappy ending.
I try to be and express my best me.
I hope I'll get where I belong.
I am young and curious.

Just Right

Ahhh ! School is coming in two days . Time past so fast like F1 . I'm half ready back to school but the other half not ready yet . *sigh . I miss my friend and syafeeq . Just can't wait to meet them again and again . Miss you guys . I already buy my school bag , stationery , school uniform , shoes and etc . But feel like there is something not yet buy but what huh ? *thinking . While in the mall , one shirt n one high heel caught my eyes , i just can't stop looking those two things , i wanna buy it but my mom will allow me to buy . So sad =(   but nevermind , i just let it go . Yes , can't wait to get new haircut and hairstyle , i wanna curl my hair and that i always to do to my hair . Thank god , finally my mom allow me to curl my hair . Thank's mom ! I never color my hair that's why is easy for me to curl my hair and it will look more smooth . This year all my school things is BLACK color , like emo or gothic but i'm not . Only got 1 year to go , can't wait to get my freedom . Just now , went to PH to have dinner because dad already promise , so crowded in PH , lots of kid voice . I just wear a simple long sleeves and short pant and wear my cap . Lazy to dress up . Just wanna be simple . After school opening , i will be seldom online in facebook , blog and ym . The reason is busy study and do assignment . Hope reader understand my situation . But i will ASAP update my blog and reply comment in FB and etc . Gonna stop at here now . Good night reader and goodbye =D

Ti amo , I love You !

Yeah is Mohd SyafeeQ the one and only i love most .

He's the guy that i need in my life . Even we couple for a few day , but we become so close every second . Omg ! i love him damn much . He's my sweetest addiction . He always cheer me up like everyday . I can't live without him . He always make me laugh and i laugh so hard but don't laugh about what . LOL . Maybe is me , i'm kilik . Yeap is true . He always reminder me to have breakfast , lunch , dinner and etc .. I just can't stop thinking about him . I will always love you , syafeeq . I will not scandal . Believe me . I will stay by your side till forever . Your name will forever in my heart .

Next to you is where i want to be.
      your love means everything to me.
      to have you close next to me,is everything i could possibly dream.
      if i didn't have you i don't know where i' d be.
      when i look at you i can't help but smile,me with you makes everything worth while.
      your like an angel sent from above.
      i would be lost without your love.
      you caring for me is all i need.
      your love is the blood that i bleed.
      you always know what to say to make everything feel okay.
      i love when you hold me in your arms,it makes me feel protected.   

010110 is Friday Babe !

Woooo ! It's Friday . Gonna hit the town search for new wardrobe . Gonna get new look for this year . This year will be my last of being a teenager . Time past so fast , just can't believe that i'm already grow up . Getting older now . Begin of new love story between me and syafeeq . We get together since 31 December 2009 . Hubby , i love you damn much ! Don't ever leave me . Hope this year will get well together . Maybe some of people say we not suitable together or what but i didn't care at all . What i care is that me and syafeeq will live happily together . If you don't like us , wtf !