Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Some people don't like to hear sorry or apologize maybe or indeed sorry can't heal anything or something . He say sorry is nothing . Other than sorry , what can we say if we say wrong or do wrong ? I keep wonder , what should say . Do i look like a person who annoying and boring ? Perhaps i need to change my attitude , change into a person who are loving , caring , not annoying , friendly and less sensitive . The old me , make few people unhappy and emo . Once again , i take a big step in changing myself , if got people don't like the change in me , do tell me or critic me because i won't mind and i just want to be a better person . I will quit saying sorry , no more sorry . If right , i will fight and if wrong , i will stay down and keep quiet . Should i love the life i'm living now with my family , my friends and him ? I do love even sometime got problem . I still fight for happiness , i will fight till end of time or world . What he say about me this lately , perhaps is right . I will keep in my mind what he say about me . After this , no more argue or anything that include sad feeling or emo feeling .
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Today , or perhaps this lately surrounding or anything in my life suddenly at up and suddenly at down . Kiddo say that i'm do a lot of thinking or think too much this lately . Sometime , i want to control my mind not to think too much but hard because my feeling drive along and want to think too much . Just because of it , i accidentally add pressure in my heart and mind until i can't hold on until i express my deep feeling by crying . I wanted to express my feeling to kiddo but don't know how , and if i express to family , i won't do that at all i just can't tell . So i choose to keep for myself and it may seem hard but i still keep . I'm still strong to keep the feeling in my heart even sometime it hurt , i try to hold on . I put hansaplast on my heart area , i know is kind of funny to hear this but i really did it . Sometime when kiddo joke with me , i slowly cheer up silently . Even his joke make me sensitive , i try to not keep in heart but sometime i can't . But i will change that , i try not too be sensitive with his joke . He indeed like to joke , but i still like it . Dear , i'm sorry about just now , when you not yet PM me , i haven't finish fill in the form and after you PM me , i still filling not that i won't inform you if i had done filling the form . I inform everything to you , if about fall asleep is accidentally and not my want . I hope you understand , i will also understand you .. I promise .
Saturday, March 26, 2011
New Haircut
Before i go into this topic , i must say sorry for being so long didn't update my bloggie and about the challenge i will do it and make it done if i got the chance .
Today in the morning , i been to T2 Studio to cut my hair to have bangs , bangs which is front of my hair . I cut like this because i want to try something different , the hairdresser give me some idea to cut like this so i just give it a try . After done cut , my mom said i look a bit chubby . So on , i send picture to kiddo , kiddo say super duper adorable and more look like chinese . Thanks for the compliment about my new look . Now , its time for me to make my skin color back to it used to be . I just use body scrub and lotion everyday , that's the way i take care my skin . If about face , once a week i use the ginseng peeler gel to remove the dead skin and my face getting better , i guess . Well tune in more with my updates .
Today in the morning , i been to T2 Studio to cut my hair to have bangs , bangs which is front of my hair . I cut like this because i want to try something different , the hairdresser give me some idea to cut like this so i just give it a try . After done cut , my mom said i look a bit chubby . So on , i send picture to kiddo , kiddo say super duper adorable and more look like chinese . Thanks for the compliment about my new look . Now , its time for me to make my skin color back to it used to be . I just use body scrub and lotion everyday , that's the way i take care my skin . If about face , once a week i use the ginseng peeler gel to remove the dead skin and my face getting better , i guess . Well tune in more with my updates .
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
He
I didn't meant to make him not in the mood or emo . This is all my fault for making him being like that . I try to cheer him up but hardly can . He's the greatest person for me . And now he maybe don't want hear from me anymore . I will stay out so that you can calm yourself . I wont disturb you . I love you , thats all .
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Thursday, March 17, 2011
I don't what else I can do beside being patient while waiting for him . If I text him , maybe he won't reply . If I call him , he maybe won't pick up . I'm totally too upsets because of my attitude toward him on yesterday . This is all because of me , is my fault . I just hope that everything back to usual , I just can pray and cry T.T
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Myself
Waiting , waiting and waiting , he still haven't text or call me . Perhaps he busy or his condition still like last night , is okey I understand . My mind just focus about him , worry about him . My self can't stay calm , I feel empty and kinda feel being ignore . But I still wait for him . Oh God , tears keep falling :'(
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Morning baby bloggie !
Wake up at 6.30 early in the morning and text him a good morning text . Hope that he will doing fine after he awake . I start my housework by wash the car , clean outside of house , clean my pet and dishes . Last night I sleep for 3 hours only , my mind keep thinking of him . I just can't sleep well but at least I got sleep a bit . Breakfie ? Haven't eat it yet or drink it . Gastric ? Be patient , later I will feed my stomach after I done my housework . My mom keep saying me hopeless and i don't know why . Maybe i'm relly useless .
Wake up at 6.30 early in the morning and text him a good morning text . Hope that he will doing fine after he awake . I start my housework by wash the car , clean outside of house , clean my pet and dishes . Last night I sleep for 3 hours only , my mind keep thinking of him . I just can't sleep well but at least I got sleep a bit . Breakfie ? Haven't eat it yet or drink it . Gastric ? Be patient , later I will feed my stomach after I done my housework . My mom keep saying me hopeless and i don't know why . Maybe i'm relly useless .
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Him
I love him . He's the person that important for me . Now , he upset or emo and is all because of me . I rather no eat and sleep to wait for him to be good in mood again or like usual again . Even he's text kinda cold but I understand why he do so . All I can say to him ' i'm sorry ' I do truly sorry for everything . If I fall sick , I accept it as revenge for what I had done toward you . I mean revenge from God because being a bad temper person . I know i'm not suppose to be so angry and i'm sorry . Gonna wait until your become okey again .
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Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Day 3 - Five song that you like .
Song , song , song .
Auburn - Perfect Two
Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are
Wang Lee Hom - Xu Yao Ren Pei
John Wilson - Before The Morning
4Men - Here I Am
These are my all time song that I like to hear , all these song have the meaning in my life . These song contain my memories . When I happy or sad , I will heard these song . Especially the song for Here I Am and Xu Yao Ren Pei , this two song can make tears fall on my cheek . These song will forever be in my mind and heart .
Auburn - Perfect Two
Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are
Wang Lee Hom - Xu Yao Ren Pei
John Wilson - Before The Morning
4Men - Here I Am
These are my all time song that I like to hear , all these song have the meaning in my life . These song contain my memories . When I happy or sad , I will heard these song . Especially the song for Here I Am and Xu Yao Ren Pei , this two song can make tears fall on my cheek . These song will forever be in my mind and heart .
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Temper
Throw away the temper that I not need . I'm only know make him sad or emo , just because my temper and is all my fault . I'm a spoiler . Dear , i'm sorry for what I had done and say . It's okey if you treat this way or ignore me , I understand and is my fault and not yours . Once again , i'm truly sorry from bottom of my heart :'(
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Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Day 2 - Six things you love.
One
The first thing i love most is my memories since i was born until know . I do have lot of memories since i was a kid , all of it is sweet memories even now also getting more sweet . I still remember every detail of my memories and i never forget every detail of it . I use my sweet memories to cheer myself up when i feel blue . And memories also do teach some lesson which got advantage for my life . I proud with who i am and having precious memories in my entire life .
Two
Down to second thing will be my cellphone . I can't live without my cellphone , i need it to keep in contact with family , dearest and friends . Where ever i go my cellphone will stick with me , in my pocket or handbag . Cellphone almost like everything , i need it to make call or send text and will be useful when got emergency .
Three
Count to third thing , it will be my red teddy blanket . Ops , i tell my little secret ! Yes indeed i still need my blanket when bedtime and i'm sound like a baby who need a blanket then only can sleep well . By the way , it was my very first blanket and it's my favorite . I had it since i was a baby , i do love it and i do wash it :D
Four
Bring me to the forth thing , gift from family , dearest and friends . I do appreciate gift from people that i love . No matter from what kind of gift or shape or size , i do take picture of gift and keep in a box . Even the gift is like food or perfume , i do keep it , even the case i also keep . Maybe seem odd to you guys but that's my way to remember gift .
Five
Fifth thing will be my closet . Well ' i'm a girl and i do love and care about my closet . My closet locate in my parents room . Don't ask why . My parents closet got 1 single door and 2 double door . My clothes , outfits , pant full in 1 double door closet , inside of it is all mine . I do have lot of shirt , many kind of shirt , got blouse , dress and etc . I still keep few of outfits when i was baby and kid . I keep it as memories . My closet just full with tee . I love collect different kind of tee and most of it is white and black color . My favorite color is white and that;s why most of it is white .
Six
Sixth and the last thing that i love is my house . I love my new house and without realize i been living at here for one year . How fast is that , i just moved in last year . My house feel cozy for me and comfortable to stay . The most part i love in my house will be my room and the kitchen . I love kitchen because i love baking and cooking . And my room because that't the place where i update blog , texting and calling with dearest .
Monday, March 14, 2011
Day 1 - Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
One
First thing sure will be God , no matter what i do or where i am my mind keep think about God because he's everything , he's the creator of all . I love God the most , nobody can compare self with God . That's all i cay say about God because everybody do know about this .
Two
Second things the most important for me is education , after i finish my SPM and while waiting for the result my dad recommend me to study part time course which is for book keeping . My dad encourage me to go for it , so i give it a try and dad said by learning about book keeping is easier for you to find work and perhaps high salary . The truth is i'm into culinary especially in baking because i love baking and i know how to bake a bit but sadly my parents strongly disagree about that . I just follow what they said because they are my parents and they know what the best for me .
Three
Third things cross my mind is love , i do like love , love make us happy and full of joy . Love doesn't mean love to someone special but also for family love , animal love and etc . As for me , i'm a lover , family lover , friend lover and animal lover . I got family which love me , care me and support me in everything i do . I do have a pet which is a rabbit called Leon but my kiddo called it Getek . I also have friend which support me like my family , i got friend to share story with which is Jie'Jie , Michiko , Chirstine and much more and about friend i been tough to pass through the misunderstanding for last year but till not can't be settle down . Just hope one day , that matter will be settle down . And come to lover , i do have a person who love me for me and love me for no reason that is Adelson Teu , he been so nice for me and he cute for me . Hope that we'll be together till eternity .
Four
Forth things will be the future , i only can plan for my future but i cannot predict what will happen in future . I keep thinking what will happen with my future will it turn out good or bad . For sure i hope it will turn out good and can make my parents proud of me for being a successful person like they want me to , got a good job , living good . And in present i will try my best to be the best in future , i just can be ready for every matter or possibility that will happen in the coming of time .
Five
Firth things is death , i wonder what is death like and as i know death is making people sad because losing the love one . If death in accident it will more make people sad , because the love one die in tragic way . As for me , i hope i won't die in tragic way , i hope in normal way . And we also can't predict when our time is end . Adelson , i'm sorry for talking about death . After this no more about death .
Six
Sixth things that cross my mind is cat . I love cat so much , but sadly my cat die because it blood being suck out by the insect and i don't know what insect is it . I felt sorry for it death . I miss it too much , i still remember it wait for food beside dinning table with it round big eyes keep stare at me .
Seven
Seventh things will be my bloggie . Everyday i keep think what should i update in my blog because not everyday i got story to tell about my life . That's all i can say .
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Hit me with Challenge
Starting tomorrow i will do this daily challenge which got seven days . So tune in everyday , to see what i write towards this challenge .
7 Days Challenge
Day 1 - Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 2 - Six things you love.
Day 3 - Five songs you like.
Day 4 - Four things you wish you could say, but might never.
Day 5 - Three things you miss.
Day 6 - Two things you want.
Day 7 - One story of a memory you have
7 Days Challenge
Day 1 - Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 2 - Six things you love.
Day 3 - Five songs you like.
Day 4 - Four things you wish you could say, but might never.
Day 5 - Three things you miss.
Day 6 - Two things you want.
Day 7 - One story of a memory you have
Friday, March 11, 2011
Book Keeping
Book keeping oh Book Keeping .
Yeah , i'm learning that course now but part time . I never expect to go for this course , as my dad ask me go for this course because he said this course easy to find job and if got degree for this course , salary may be high . This course not easy , the more i learn the more getting hard . Hope my brain got enough space to accept all this calculation . If got homework , i hardly can do it but no all . Exam will be on first of June , got four question . Wish me luck , can get 50 marks .
Yeah , i'm learning that course now but part time . I never expect to go for this course , as my dad ask me go for this course because he said this course easy to find job and if got degree for this course , salary may be high . This course not easy , the more i learn the more getting hard . Hope my brain got enough space to accept all this calculation . If got homework , i hardly can do it but no all . Exam will be on first of June , got four question . Wish me luck , can get 50 marks .
Friday, March 4, 2011
Crying occurs when the body reacts emotionally to something. Tears are a reaction of the nervous system to try and ease our pain, just as we would when physically harmed. The body senses our distress and the cranial nerve in the brain is stimulated, this sends signals to the neurotransmitters in the tear glands to make us cry. These tears contain high levels of manganese and the hormone prolactin in order to reduce the amount of these chemicals in the body, a defence mechanism produced to keep depression away. This is why many people feel better after they cry, because these excess hormones have been reduced and the body is returned to a more stable state. Sometimes we say we can’t cry anymore. Why? Well, if you keep triggering a stimulus, the nervous system stops responding. If you keep pressing on a bruise, after a while the nerves won’t respond anymore and it won’t hurt. If you keep getting upset, the body might not react to it, you might not cry, and you probably feel worse. So if you need to cry, just do it. It might be distressing, it might make you feel weak, it might make your eyes puffy, but it also might make you feel better.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Picture of Self
Ini muka ordinary .
Ini muka bubu .
Ini muka dengan rambut tutup sebelah mata .
Ini muka sedih and nangis .
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