Shizzo .

Hello wello . I know is been a while i didn't update my bloggie . I been busy with my school stuff . Spm years who know been a busy wusy year . I totally exhausted today and today i didn't go to school because i have to represent the school and go to the police station for celebrate the police day . Yayyy . In the morning the cloud is bit a dark and it's raining a bit . We have to line up in the middle of the rain . My uniform is all wet , on that time i got flu *sigh . I can't feel my shoulder and my knee , because we line up for a long time . Damn hurt and the speech was damn long like newspaper . OMFG ! But glad the weather not hot if not i may pass-out . Next monday , i also won't attend to school because teacher ask me to follow her to JP for the practice of celebrate the  Kadet Polis which will be on 31 March 2010 . Yayyy , i can't wait but this time we need to line up for about 2 or 3 hours . Damn it , i will pass-out just believe me . 

I miss my old friend and my son syafeeq !

Fahman , i miss you sygs !

Choices

Hmm . This lately i keep thinking did i do a right decision in my life and am i happy with my life now ? Sometime the answer is yes and no . I can't stop thinking , wanna share story with people i love but i scare they didn't understand . *sigh . Well look at the bright side , and don't look at the dark side . But i can't see nothing at all . Am i blind ? The most strange feeling and dream is the worst past of my life come back in my mind again , i hate it damn much . I already hardly forget it but it come back again , i didn't ask to come back . But why me ? I already enough suffer for all that bad memory . Oh God , please help me to pass through ! I don't what i feeling right now , i am all white out . You can't feel me and i can't feel you .

Love is in the air

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     MOHD FAHMAN

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       AMANDA

 

Solo

Hello hello . . . I'm getting real busy nowdays , you know busy with school stuff and my real life , of course .

TOTALLY BUSY !

Well i'm gonna re-organize my schedule for school and tuition . But i am not gonna forget to hang out sometime with my friend . I'm going to be solo , that's for me but don't know for him . I don't love him anymore , he just can't understand , i guess . I'm don't care much , suit yourself but i won't recognize him as my boyfriend . It's over for me . Up to you what to say what or beg me but i am still end it .

                              GOODBYE FOR YOU !

Well going through solo life is not hard at all . I already what the feeling of being solo . But this time i'm gonna enjoy every single of my life . Never missed it . Well for the haters , i ain't care what you talk about me at my back but one thing for sure you guys just make yours mouth tired talk bad about me and make your heart more hurt , i know you jealous with but i don't care . If you skin is dark , just admit it no need to pretend bto have a white skin . I admit that my skin not white . So don't busybody with other people life and go mine your own business .

HATER YOU MAKE ME FAMOUS !
  

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Away

I'm just gonna do a real quick post .
Please fade away from my life , i don't want to recall back or look back about that moment .  
Stop it . Is killing my heart .
I won't go back anymore no matter what you do .
Last night my parents scolded me about what happen at school , damn that teacher he says bad word or things about me then make my mum so angry at me . I been crying last night until my eyes become smaller .
I call son syafeeq because i knew he will comfort me with his joke and make laugh . I'm sorry because make you wake up from your sleep .

What a hard day

This week is exam week . I don't feel in the mood to blogging like i used to be . I been a tough days , is killing me . The weather is so HOT  i can't stand it , the HEAT of the SUN make me HEADACHE and FEVER . Damn for those still open-burning . I hate when people open-burning , they just keep the earth become more hotter than even , such stupid person . Maybe they didn't think about the effect . Noob =.=" . Well my exam was quiet good but i didn't satisfied with my history paper , i didn't aswer all the question and i SCARE i cannot pass the test . Oh God , i SCARE the way teacher scold . Pray for my best . Yesterday , on the evening i walk back to school from my friend house , got a male teacher scolded me about my shirt , maybe he didn't got brain to think that the weather is damn HOT then my uniform is black in colour . He tell me that he want to meet my parents , just because my shirt . So ridiculous .  Well when i get back to home , i told my mom what happen , at first my mom scolded me , i just sit stood didn't say a word until now . I just keep silent all the time . I already say sorry to my mom but she just ignore me . After that on that night i chat with sonsyafeeq but he laugh at me . I hope he give me some word that will bust up my strength but he make my strength going down . I think i make a wrong decision in my life , hard to say . But everything already too late . Just forget about it . It's over . Myself is getting worse , no thing can save me . I just appreciate every moment in my life until that day .