Confession

Finally , i already confess what i feel toward him . But it's okay if he didn't feel the same way like i do . I'm learning to accept the fate that i can't accept . He give me the best reason , study and facing big exam . Even that i also need to respect his decision . I feel like wanted to cry but i stop myself to cry . I cannot force people . I also don't like to force people . I  knew he is the right one but not like what i expected . So me and him just being best friend like usual . I appreciate our friendship . I know i should not fall in love to him but i just can't control my feeling . He light up my life and make me cheerful inside and outside . I never lies about my feeling and toward myself . With a heavy heart , i accept . Once again i failed . Amanda , be strong . I just gonna keep smiling and being cheerful where things getting better or getting worst . I hate what i feeling right now . Oh God , give me more strength .