Blalalalala .

Beginning of today start with a face like that . Today throw a small birthday  party for my dad . He's turning 50 years old , wow oh wow time pass so fast like lightning . Dad growing older and so for me growing older and become more mature in time . The prepare-tion for the party quick going well but mom start to be frustrated and mom nag to everyone in the house except my aunt . I'm the person that most being nag nag nag by mom suddenly i also become stress because mom keep nag .Actually i'm a hot temper person but i try to change it from time to time but now is getting better and better . End of the topic about dad birthday . Now , wanna know what i feel all this day , i feel stress , alone , lonely , missing him . I feel everything . Yes , indeed we seldom contact each other because now both of us facing biggie exam , he STPM i SPM . So both of us busy study , study , study and wait the time pass by till the end of biggie exam . He will end his exam on 16 December and i will end on 20 December . Both of us will be patient and wait for the day we been waiting for . Actually is worth to wait . The truth is inside of me sick , my sickness . I keep it for myself because i don't want make people worry . Tomorrow will be math , pi and sci paper . Wish me luck peeps ! What i need right now is comfort . I totally understand his condition , i know the condition not allow us to contact like we always do . I will be a understanding person . Nothing to worry like i said ' everything just doing fine ' or the two words that like to said ' I'M FINE ' . Yes , i totally fine . I can slowly pass through all this day . But one thing that i know is i won't change no matter what happen . That's my promise for him . Lazy puppy , lazy cat miss you like crazy T.T . I don't know how to calm myself down . When you ask me to enjoy or do something that is fun . I can't do it and feel it . I'm so sorry because fail to cheer myself up but is not your fault , is nobody fault . Don't ever blame yourself for me . All you need to do is get enough rest and study for your biggie exam . I love you , MWAH !