Deep Inside

Deep inside of me is tearing apart and hurting and getting more hurt . Why keep mention the same topic all over again ? Why ? The impact toward me , so big and i can't hold on to it and don't when i can hold on to it . I face this topic , just by crying . I hardly can pass through the hurt and the deep i fall in . I can't get out of there . I just can't . This is too hard to me , i can be in trauma just because of this . Now i'm half way trauma because he want to give it a try . Better ask him kill me or stab my heart if he want to do so because even he do it , it also like kill me . Amanda , cry all you want and i know if i started cry and it won't stop anymore . This really hurt me , perhaps will got lot of scar in my heart . Cry , cry ,cry and i just can't stop crying .