12:28am

I'm still healing myself . Guess that myself can't accept all fact that happening to me , is hard for me . But for him , he's make it out and be normal for several days . I just say to him , that i will live life without feeling sad , but i know i can't do so but i just try my best . I'm so sensitive that's why hard for me , unlike him so easy heal because he don't love me too much or perhaps no love at all . He said that i can still know more about him but he just lied . All the word during the day when i'm in pain and hurts , all the word he said maybe just to comfort me and didn't meant it . He said he won't tired or bored making me be like i used to be but seem that he tired or bored say the same things , he didn't meant it from heart . All just to comfort me , just to make me okay . Then when i feel okay , he start to change . All the powerful word or sentence , he didn't meant it . This make me hurt much and cry again , i thought by seeing he say like that or do like that i will be okay but after i know all the word back meaning , i feel hopeless again . He just pity toward me . He didn't really want to help me Perhaps religion different , thats why he treating me differently . Am i'm worst for him to treat me like this ? I thankful for knowing him and i never regret for knowing him . He good for me . Even the way he treat me which make me hurt , i don't mind at all because that's him .