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I been abandon bloggie for a decade , well actually not decade just few month .

Reader how are you , been good ? Apologize toward for the late update in my blog even i know there no one or reader give a visit on my blog (information for the blog statistic)

Where should i start ? How about start with my school life , now i'm having my lame school holiday with one assignment which is general studied folio and my research title is about sources energy thingy which i haven't start yet , yeah i know i been lazy because i just finished my mid term exam right before a day before holiday . I'm praying that my result and pointer will be up up up again since my minor test on march i gain up my grade . But still i didn't satisfied yet until i reach my pointer target . Friends at school been good and stay stable and still even though most of them is Chinese .

Futhermore , my life is been up and down . It just unpredictable which sometime can be good and bad , is hard to deal and go through with this kind of life . But i'm just being me , the one run , avoid and hide when i can't face any situation or life challenge that being into my life . I'm weak enough to face with situation or challenge that i never face before which me first timer . And this is just lame for me . I lost my way in finding the right way and strength to face those situation . And i'm being weird enough , sometime i happy like i forget where i stand and sometime i can be just like a jerk which piss people off and annoy people . This make me crying and dying deep inside me . You may call me selfish , i don't care . My mind and my heart can't go as one , it been tied up into a puzzle which i have to solve it and the key to solve it is just for me to willing and letting but there something i can't willing and letting . I don't know who am i anymore . I totally different and shame on me . Maybe i just miss someone so badly then turn into this , everything so caught up . I hard to calm myself down , am losing my mind .