Jump then Fall

i lost my direction . Don't where to go . Everything not the same anymore . I can't go back to my life before and cannot start a new life anymore . I'm stuck forever . Wonder why Mr.panda doing , thinking ??? Wish he were beside me . huh .. he not longer mine , i lost my true love . i know true love come once never come twice . now is all gone and fade away . I can't heal myself . What should i do ??? I need to find every part of me but where to start and how ??? Why i get a fate like this ??? I must be patient to this fate . When night fall down , i cry a lot because thinking about mr.panda . When rain fall down , i walk into the rain to cover my teardrops . I could go back to every laugh but i don't want go there anymore because don't have meaning for me anymore . Now what i do is be Dr.Love . haha . Now i have a new BF but he can't change mr.panda place in my heart . Never ever . Deeply in my heart still love mr.panda . Maybe mr.panda don't love me anymore . But nevermind , just let me know what i feel in my heart . Because no one know what i feel . If there is someone know what i feel , thank you ! I don't need sympathy from anyone .