Should or Not ?

hello again BLOG ! hmm ... should i force mysefl to love my new BF , but i'm the one suffer right ? should i break up with my new BF but i feel pity for him ? haiyo . dunno what to do .. BLANK ! I got a friend , but let me call him 'SON' hehe .. He told me to forget Mr.Panda , throw all of my memories with Mr.panda . huhu . Where do i get the strength to forget so much sweet memories with Mr.panda ? This is the part i hate in chapter LOVE , that is BREAK UP AND FORGET MEMORIES . OMG ! Son , help me lol . All Son need to do is knock my head then forget everything but Son said no use if knock head but use heart . How oo ? I so tired of my life . I need to find my new life , all i need is the other side of the door . At there i can find back every pieces of me or my heart . huhu ! Feel just like want to DIE ! Since i knew Son , i often laugh too hard . For few month i never laugh like that . Miss my old life but sadly i need to run away from that life since that unexpected day . I AM SO TIRED ! Tired of what ? Tired of swimming and jump . the back of my body full of pain . Feel like the bone already broken . haha !